hias@@

i realli hate my entire life. so tiring, borinh, lonely, and stressful. why do i exist? i have nth to do with anything and i am even scared of death. i didnt want to both live and die. i even dreamt of my mum died in a hospital when i was already married. either it telling me if i m married to someone will die or a spirit is haunting me or my mum...hias well i got enough. no one is gonna force me to do things i dun like or want to. hias i am too exhausted.

i just wish i could meet my dead elder sister when i aged and die. she died during abortion ... i do realli hate everyone except her...she had been with me since i was bornt till my cruel parents cast her away with the ritual. they will get their retribution especially my dad. my mum even talked rubbish 100% stupid thinking my dad got proper job after casting my sister! he got mistress! lazy to work! lied,borrow money even during chinese new year! and i curse him with aids! i wont even bother to mourn. my mum is just a weakling and i m not gonna suffer stupidly like her. to me now... i cant believe in anyone else. they may lead me to trouble and may even be death. ppl and i we all are like weaklings...