Yi Zhi: March 2011

this morning texting to someone abt my sorrow and my prepaid card finish.. hiass that bad. the line on my arms realli hurt but my bleeding heart hurt even more n more.. hias i wan a job..

i have to find no matter what. i m not gonna depend on them , and wok even harder for future uses. i may lose jobs and those money may helps to keep me alive..

hiass now i go try at jobsatstreet.com? mayb..

Monday, March 14, 2011

What is your goal? I mean now.

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ask me !!! smth u realli wan to knw and next time dun ask meee

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ask me difficult question la!!

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which shopping center is the best?

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

hias i m realli upset abt smth. hias nvm i m realli tired today. tml will be another shining day. i will nvr depend on ppl! i must stay strong! ^^ lols.. mm i wan learn how to knit mittens but dun hv the equipment and its quite expensive.. lols n now i m not working anymore.. wat to do then? lols i m damn today ya?

i wan damn die

i wan to work sia

i dun wanna live

i wan to run away from home and live by myself.

i dun trust anyone and i m all by myself

everyone around me is taking me as a fool and lie to me

why? why?!!! i m not a foool

i can do it i can stay strong.. :( u bitches and baddies,.....

mm i shld set my shedule hahas

morning..(sat and sun)

7am-8.30am online.

8.30am-8.45am bathing

8.45am-9.30am knitting and watching tv

9.30am-11am online

11am-12.30pm go library time!

12.30pm-12.55pm lunch and tv.

12.55pm-4pm hang out, go anywhere

4pm-4.30pm journey home

4.30pm-4.55pm bathing

4.55pm-5.55pm tv

5.55pm-7pm online

7pm- 10pm tv!!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

mmm hope it went all rite..

tml i m goin to that person house. i dun hv powerpoint mah n i hv to do bio presentation.. wth that old man is smoking again. he stinks!--hias hope i m strong to face her. now we just normal frens.. hope so.. my feelings.. unbearable. well i have nth left to say. mm.. dunno y got headache these days sia. i cnt even take an afternoon nap. i will hace bad headache after this.. lols smth wrong.. choy! hahas,, mm
japan got earthquake... maybe we shld go other country. mum keep persuading me to cancel the trip.. lols.. taiwan? australia? nah that fren of mine dw.. lols she wan go japan-- d lor. later other ppl choose the country she dw ..n dk how she reacts hahas.. she just too young.. but got big ambitions. hahas. hope goddess protects us..

Friday, March 11, 2011

hias boring..and a little upset.

mm.. my that person.. hias i just suck lols.. suck at love lols. i even made that person cry ytd.. --mm well i kept telling myself not to go further..in love. that person one day have to face the worst difficulties.. hias..life sucks. love sucks too.. :( i do want fall in sweet love but i had enough troubles facing right now..

i even dk i can made it to japan. this kind of old man is not to be exist. he is making me wanting to kill him. well i m not that stupid. wish god and grandpa teach him a cruel lesson..-.- i have enough. he was asking me i knw how to get passport anot?! wth! that means no one is accompanying me to lavender to collect my passport. i even think that he wants my mum to work for $$$ instead of collecting my passport! is he insane? i wanna call MH. wat a shit. hope the crow fuck on him wholely.-- i ...hias.. i got enough liao. if mum insist on not going, i dun address these parents to be exist and they r just like my foster parents. eddy he? he also go to hell. he has no respect. my parents spoil him at first and now wat? they ignored him! they not fit to be parents?!THEN WHY DO THEY HAVE US? ................................ I M IN PAIN..REALLY AN UNBEARABLE PAIN. I DUN EVEN WAN STAY AT HOME . I WAN MOVE OUT AND GO TO WORK. I WONT GIVE A CENT TO THIS KNID OF FAMILY! WHY SHLD IBE THE ONE SUFFERING AT THIS STUPID AGE?!!!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

is it jealousy? love? or sturbborness??

hias i am happy when i saw that person laugh or smile.. i feel jealous when that person laughs and enjoy other ppl (whom i hate) chit chat.. hias..i wan go closer and feel that person presence.. i feel like that person is dirfting away.. i wan grab and hug that person.. lols.. -- mushy uh?

i still my recent ex.. and that person.. i want try talk with that person but my mind! my feeling! and my conscience do not allow me to.. i dun know y.. i hate, and got upset by that person cos of that person stuipd mind.. lols.. mm.. if i have to choose btw them ..i may choose that person or no one.. cos that ex is not going to have me back again.. he dun understand.. and that person dun know anything.. that person may be attached.. hias.. i dun mine.. i will just wish that person happiness..

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

i want thank my friends!

mm... lols my friends sometimes hv nth to talk to me..i do get lonely. well it doesnt matter cos i also nth to say to them. they did tried to help me out especially yu ting.. she is cheerful and smart at certain events or things. yan xin is an express level! i admire her. i think she do not have to worry about her finding a job.. hahas. mansura that ah ma? lols she is SO FUNNY HAHAS. and she got a lot of experience since sec1 to sec5 now! ..mm.. does she has a bf? maybe yes.. bleh.. hahas. thanks to them. ;)

mm.. another one..mm we both have same birthday month and same birth character... lols. i regard her as best friens.. or maybe not.. cos she dun really get it.. hias.. i thinking we are sisters in past lives.. lols. hahas.. impossible la. lols. mm.. well i just err.. 520 la. lols! shh.. just zip ur mindset and mouth! yu ting shh!!!!!! lols.. mm.. boring day today.. :(

y??? i dun understand!

hias i really hate someone now.. that person dun really get it. i want to grow loving that person but i think it impossible.. there will be trouble de... lols. how? my feeling r so mixed up with hatred,sadness and fonding to kiss that person.. lols-- (hey dun puke hor counsellor yeo--) mm.. i only got back my two common test papers.. i just pass lols.. hope these other papers the marks r scored half the full marks.. ^^ that enough for me.. lols..

i say so many lols uh? lols. i m miss lols hahas..i m gonna go pub on my birthday and share a sip with my special friend... lols..dun tell u. hahas. >.<>

Saturday, March 5, 2011

YEAH!!!!!!!!!my hard work are fufilled!!!

lols... just finish my exams!!!! mm..i may pass my biology, social studies, .... lols i am not sure abt the others.. well i can take i dun care abt the grade..as long i passed even 50% too.. i wanna enjoy. if i m 18, if i m strong, if i have no 'watermelon'.. i will be able to rock the pub! hahas.. lols just orange juice lols..
i may even work at ease and earn more money FOR MYSELF! i dun bother that old man! he takes them for granted! -- jerk! all men said they worked hard and in stress and TIERD!
shit la. still,, women the best!!!! for real sia. they gave birth, work, take care of the household, discipline the children and children sometimes a headache ya?.. ^^ lols so women the best! men just lazybones. uh! some women cant take it and even divorce or ran away frm home cos just they CANT TAKE IT COS OF Ushe MEN! WTH! LOLS.. wth i m talking abt here..
uh ry is BAD VERY BAD at commets so wat if her eng is gd?!she flat and SHE WILL SAY 'YUCK! AH... WORMS.." WTH.. SOME PPL are good at volunteering work in africa. africa is quite a poor counry cos of the weather condition ... hias i m lucky to be singaporean":)