mmm...

smth wrong..
my dreams seldom come true but however they do.
i dreamt of that place n yet i went there unknowingly.. isnt it weird..my
ears hurt.. n i sweat n i always fell like someone poking me n i woke up in a start. but
there is no one.
mm i told mum abt it but
she didnt even care. i always fear the darkness, the toilet bowl, the living room n under the bed, as if there is someone heree. n mum also said that she suspects there ghosts in our home that causes my parents to fight constantly, n so? didnt in our old home they also fight.. hias..
i also feel that way.. whenever i sleep , mum said i always shiver and kick the bad as if i m hving a nightmare.. idk y..but i once tried n its cos i dreamt falling down the stairs, n so mayb that wat caused me shivered?
mm dreams vividly will come true. i guess...
i even dreamt hanging out at the graveyard with hot vampyre kissing me, holding hands, n lying on his bed naked behind the blanket, looking at the stars.. through his roof.. romantic>< hahas it will not come true. if yes many ppl here in the world will be suffering n bags of bloods frm the hosp will go missing ya? :) mm well i just want to say it out. cos i dun feel smth gd.. well i gtg n bathe ;) bye.

mm.. i m unwell n feeling wrong again!!

no! i cant be like this..

missing that person n hating the other person.. wat to do? no no no i guess its just normal feeling ya? .. i m confused today..

mm m i too immature, too weird, too over-reacted, too childish n selfish? yea i m..uh? hias ya i m.. that y i m boring n too weird a person to talk to.. yea.. yea.. hias watever..

well i hv a bad stomach today this morning n now i m better.. mm i m bored too. hias well i feel like a kid n dk how to be like a teen.. well next year i will be adult ;) but :( i m still immature. n no job. my family is in chaos due to that old man fault. all men r realli a headache.. i shldnt.... shldnt hv believed in love b4 . love can be meant for other things ya? care, concern, thoughts for poor children who r orphans, worse-off families, n i can only trust n love my FATHER... i only can believe in him...he can do wat i ask for n he made me.

mm so.. i shldnt ever, ever fall in love in rush n hv r/s or else the same old thing will happens again..