hias@@

i realli hate my entire life. so tiring, borinh, lonely, and stressful. why do i exist? i have nth to do with anything and i am even scared of death. i didnt want to both live and die. i even dreamt of my mum died in a hospital when i was already married. either it telling me if i m married to someone will die or a spirit is haunting me or my mum...hias well i got enough. no one is gonna force me to do things i dun like or want to. hias i am too exhausted.

i just wish i could meet my dead elder sister when i aged and die. she died during abortion ... i do realli hate everyone except her...she had been with me since i was bornt till my cruel parents cast her away with the ritual. they will get their retribution especially my dad. my mum even talked rubbish 100% stupid thinking my dad got proper job after casting my sister! he got mistress! lazy to work! lied,borrow money even during chinese new year! and i curse him with aids! i wont even bother to mourn. my mum is just a weakling and i m not gonna suffer stupidly like her. to me now... i cant believe in anyone else. they may lead me to trouble and may even be death. ppl and i we all are like weaklings...

lols lalas.. i m happy;)

this year must be a gd year. (despite staying for maths tutorial i will show mr faisal my common test results!! --) mm... well thats wat my um told me. my dad has been working (or fooling around) since late night till morning and i m ...in relationship again@@ yt! stop naggin to me next mon! hahas... mm...i bet i can last quite long with her or him. since last year after that foolish brk up, i feel like enough to date. cos i have been failing my date. cos of my trust. well mum married wrong man i do fear i would end up like her. or my big aunt. my aunt got pregnant at 17 which is my THIS YEAR AGE! which i fear i may get pregnant.. lols and my aunt bf died in accident just after their daughter was bornt. ..sad thing ya? my aunt has been like hating her mayb? they were not in gd rs.. my aunt has always takes me as a her daughter since i was bornt.. ;) well happy to hv two mothers.

mmm hope i could pass all my subjects at least 60%. lols. even mr ramlee said that sec3na since in 1990? idk la. its been a long time that no one in sec3na pass english in those years. my CLASS has to pass or else dk who is gonna kill me.. or us.. ppl dependin on sec3na lor.. hias so stressful.

mm i in rs so ..i shld try to last long no matter wat. i knw i m destined to be single but hope and pray to god that i could last at least 3 mths rs with my other half. ;) SHUT UP YT-- thk guys reading my this blog. take care. common test coming.

hias i am so devasted

i wan to buy black candle but dk where to buy or how to go n buy.. yet its nid money wah..

i wan to work and it tiring to go to work straight from school. hias wat can i do? i nid help.. nah no one can get an answer from me why i nid a black candle. i just nid it for fun k?! lols.. i am so vexed. hate to go to sch. ouch my back pain.i gotta buy rice for lunch. gd luck for ur common test!

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y everyone i mean... y not every one just say it out??? y they just tell u that they hv smth they r sad or worried abt, and u ask them wat wrong n they say hestitate! i hate that man! i think being straightforward is betther cos its a bad habit to hestitate and other ppl will knw wats goin on.they may help u or support u. wth my fren hestitate n i cant stand it man! i m tired of it u knw?! --

hias ytd is my bday n it very boring day for me! i just ewent to pasir ris to buy a dvd 'true blood'! (yeah..) but... out of stock! they just hv it on rental man! -- n its cost 20 bucks to rent! i bet they sold it at abt 30+ bucks without rental! omg. that my unlucky day. i went paya lebar to buy clothes n yet they dun fit me! the skirt too short, the top too tight, the short toooo short! -- hias bad day ya? :( -- watever. n worse i went aljunied to go another dvd shop n i bought a hooror disc. i waited for the lady to finish her call and the glass table i hold on to it n it nearly drop! omg! the other disc on the glass table drop... so i put them in order. hey! whn u selling things shld say thk u to customer ya?? that lady didnt. she dun seem friendly n i bet she chatting wif a guy over the phone! -- uh! she nvr say thk u n yet i say thk?! babo la ! hias watever.

happy holiday! :)

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hias so disappointing... a fren failed me.. let me down.. well watever. i goin to cc hse for her mum help to take me whr the job interview is. hope i can work there. thk gdness sk is helping me and herself to do workout! ^^ hope our fats r killed ^^ oo... i m so bored today. i m goin to dhoby ghuat! yeah hoo... at least go do shopping. that may b my last enjoyable journey alone.. before i work.. well.. err.. tc yourself and live happily! happy holidays! ]

lalas.. boring.!!!!

lols exams over but i hates boredom! hias ifer i failed my subjects@@

hope i pass all average lor. mm..eng-60%

math-50%

science-58%

geography-....... ...... 52%

history-55%

literature-@@ ....... .....50%

LALAS hope u guys do well in ur exams! bye!

^^^^ a note to ms yeo.

hey! u counsellor ah?!!

u like pink hor so i type in pink. mm...watever la idk i got time to hang out with u guys.

wat if i got smth on le.. n y must bother to go? go whr? bugis? sio hot le. must go during cool weather la. mm..wat else.. somerset? boring. where else?mm...u guys full of hanging out... fun but must check got money or not? hahas.. kiddin.

so wth u guys wanna go?